Getting lifteddd^^ studying, sleep

Why can’t I ever look good

Everyday before school I’m always so happy. Then through out the day something weird turns up and I’m either pissed off or sad. Then I get home and I’m crying. What’s up with me lately?

I rolled the best blunt :-)

Ms. Blaut gave me new troll beads

I love getting high by myself >:)

I don’t understand why everyone gets all worked up over 2012. If the world ends, at least we all die together.

I feel like my dad has just given up on everything

I go out to eat with my dad, and he starts crying. I go and visit nanny with him, and he starts bawling. He’s so upset cause Giovanni passed. That was his baby. Now he’s just gone.. I hate seeing my dad upset like this. Do you not realize HOW HARD it was for me not to cry my eyes out? How hard it was to hear my dad say he wanted to die, to hear my grandmother say it was her time to go????????? I don’t know what’s going on, this new year is really going to be a big deal. I don’t know how I’m going to leave my little sister in this house all by herself while I’m in college. This year is the year of a big change. It makes me wanna cry so bad but I’m happy I’m not cause I have a better way of coping with my feelings. Crying doesn’t get me anywhere.

I don’t care if I’m writing for everyone to see. I don’t care if it’s stupid to post all my personal shit on here. I don’t care what ANYONE thinks. Tumblr, you’re my only way of coping with my feelings.

I don’t care if my sister thinks that I’m not upset like I’m supposed to be. I’m trying to be a strong sister and cry later.

Im high